Friday, December 09, 2005

Hello again

So the wife has been bringing up in conversation lately; when she is talking with other people how she says that she would like to move out of the area, but she knows I don't want to. I don't mean to over react or anything, but maybe ten years is long enough. Here is my take on things.

Remember how you felt when you graduated college. The world was yours for the taking. You wanted to get out there spread your wings and do great things. Well she graduated just two years ago, and she wants to get out in the world and make her mark. I, on the other hand, graduated 22 years ago. I have archived a level of success in my career. I have created a home for myself, and that is where I want to be. There is no doubt in my mind that she is capable of doing great things. I want her to be happy, and I don't want to stand in the way of her happiness. I wonder how that "crucial conversation" would go.


"There are no good guys,
There are no bad guys.
There's just you and me,
And we just disagree."

Thursday, August 04, 2005

What we have here is a failure to communicate

I believe I have mentioned that "my friend" is from a different culture. Sometimes there is stuff lost in translation. I think you will find this pretty funny. I only wish her meaning was what I want it to be.

THEM... I just want to let you know that I didn't chnace to look XIs yet today
ME ... I haven't documented what we talked about either
ME ... I guess I need to do that
THEM... I am doing Branching, pasting all the chnages from my old branch to new
THEM... and I was busy with Bayview setup too
ME ... I am afraid this past week is all catching up with me today
ME ... VERY TIRED
THEM... Let me finish this production issue
THEM... I will be on your desk we will do it together
THEM... In another 2 hrs
ME ... I like the sound of that

Friday, July 15, 2005

Can I do that ?

So can I (a married man) tell someone else (a married woman) that they are
the most beautiful person I have ever met in my life? Can I say I think of
them and fantasize about them all the time? Do I dare mention the one thing
I want to do more than anything else in this world is to make love to them?

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

10 Commandment flap

By Allan Sloan
Newsweek July 11 issue

You may think that the Supreme Court ruled last week that
the state of Texas could continue to display a Ten Commandments monolith on
its capitol grounds in Austin. But you'd be wrong. Look at the monolith?you
can find it at tspb.state.tx.us/spb/gallery/monulist/ 10lg.htm?and you'll
notice that it doesn't contain 10 commandments. It has 11. And if you count
"I am the Lord thy God" as a commandment, which Jews do but Christians
don't, the Supreme Court has approved a Twelve Commandments monolith,
rather than the traditional Decalogue.

This monolith, sponsored by the Fraternal Order of Eagles, was part of a PR
campaign for "The Ten Commandments," Cecil B. DeMille's 1956 Biblical epic
starring Charlton Heston. Yes, the Supreme Court was ruling on the legality
of a Hollywood promotion. The Eagles' grand secretary, Bob Wahls, explained
to me last week that the text is a compromise drawn up by Jewish and
Christian clergy to respect everyone's beliefs. So rather than bearing Ten
Commandments that are the Word of God, the monolith bears 11 or 12
commandments that are the Word of a Committee.

This may all sound like hairsplitting and mockery, but it's not. Regardless
of whether you believe in the literal truth of the Bible (or, as most call
it, the Old Testament), the Ten Commandments are a vital underpinning of
Judeo-Christian culture. But while it's one thing to be in favor of ethics
and morality in public life, it's a whole different thing to think?as I
suspect most Americans do?that there is one single Decalogue. The complex
textual history of the Commandments suggests that the more you study the
Bible, the less certain you become of your ability to divine the precise
Word of God. That's a useful lesson in this divided time.

Most public displays of the Ten Commandments, including the ones in Texas
and Kentucky that the Supreme Court dealt with, are based on Exodus 20,
verses 2-14, where God speaks directly to the Israelites. But if you grew
up as I did, studying the Bible in its original Hebrew, you know that
there's a second, equally valid version in Deuteronomy 5:6-18. And the two
versions differ. In Exodus, God says to remember the Sabbath because he
created the world in six days and rested on the seventh. In Deuteronomy,
Moses recounts that God told the Israelites to observe the Sabbath because
the Lord liberated them from Egyptian bondage. So which is it? The
traditional Jewish answer is that God uttered both versions simultaneously,
but fallible human ears heard it two separate ways. So how can you post one
version or the other and declare it the Ineffable Word of God? You can't.

Then there's the numbering problem?which is how the Eagles ended up with
more than 10 commandments. During the Monica Lewinsky uproar, Bill Clinton
said he hadn't violated the Sixth Commandment. But whose Sixth Commandment?
To Roman Catholics and Lutherans, it's the no-adultery commandment. But to
Jews and members of Orthodox and Reformed churches, Clinton was saying he
hadn't murdered or killed, respectively.

The rules of the game require all religions to end up with 10 commandments
(or "utterances," to use the literal Hebrew translation) because that's the
Bible's number. (See Exodus 34:28 and Deuteronomy 4:13 and 10:4.) Jews
count "I am the Lord thy God" as the First Commandment, while Christians
consider it part of "You shall have no other gods before me," which Jews
count as No. 2. Some Christians split "don't covet" into two commandments;
others split up the prohibitions on having other gods and making graven
images. We won't even get into translations: whether God is speaking
against murder and swearing false oaths (the Jewish version) or killing and
taking the Lord's name in vain (the Christian one).

So rather than fighting about the Ten Commandments, perhaps we should turn
to Micah 6:8. The Lord, says the prophet, requires us "only to do justly,
and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God." To which all of us can
say, amen.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

The best day of my life

I don't know if anyone can point to a single day and say that was the best day of my life, but I'm pretty sure I can. The reason for this is at the end of the day, as I was thinking back over it, it occurred to me that it was the best day I've ever had. That's not to say I haven't had good, or even great days since then, but I don't think there has ever been anything to top this particular day.

I was in a committed relationship at the time. I spent Friday night at my girlfriend's apartment, and when we woke up Saturday morning, we "re-consummated" our relationship. This was a very intense and wonderful "session".

Afterward I got up and took a shower. I was living with my brother at the time, so I got ready and left to head home. My girlfriend was going to spend the day with her sister shopping so I was free to spend the day as I pleased. I am thinking that it was sometime in mid-February (the heart of the ACC basketball season). On the way home I stopped off at the grocery store to get something for lunch. I bought a chili packet that is packaged in a brown bag. I can't remember the name, but I am pretty sure you can still get it. I bought a pound of hamburger and some cheese and crackers to eat with it.

When I arrived at the house, I got the TV going to watch the NCSU basketball game. I am thinking this was either 1986 or 1987 so we had a good team and Jim Valvano was our head coach. I got the chili going and watched the first half of the game. Don't hold me to this, but I believe we were playing Duke. I ate the chili, with cheese and crackers, at half-time; and it was delicious. The second half of the game started, and it was what they call a "barn burner". It was a game that went down to the last shot (or at least a very very close game) but we ended up winning.

After that game, another one came on right behind it. This was a UNC game. Once again don't hold me to this, but I believe they were playing Maryland. I was laying on the couch, and after about ten minutes I dozed off. I woke up to catch the last ten minutes and it was another close one. UNC, however, lost the game. It was now starting to get late in the day, and I was looking forward to seeing my girlfriend again.

O.K., here are the elements of this day:
1) It starts off with great sex
2) Followed up with great food
3) Fantastic ACC basketball, where NCSU wins their game and UNC looses their game
4) Throw in a great nap in the middle

I can't think of anything that could have made that day any better. I am sure I haven't had a day that good since.

Monday, June 06, 2005

The Dream

Since this is a dream, things don't have to make sense. I will make notes in this font to point out such things.

I don't know why I am in your hotel room at the beginning of the dream.

We are both traveling to a business conference and are staying in the same hotel. You get a foot cramp that causes you a lot of pain. Since it hurts so much you allow me to massage your foot. You are wearing a skirt and laying on your stomach. I am rubbing really hard to try to build up a lot of friction and heat to make it go away. Once the cramp releases and the pain leaves I start a very tender and gentle massage. I do each toe individually. I cover the entire length from toe to heel. I do the top, the bottom, and both sides. In order to prevent the other foot from cramping I massage that one as well.

I start to massage the back of your legs and calves because that area can cramp up easily also. I get up to the knee and I ask if you want me to continue. You say yes. I continue up the legs, one hand on each leg until I get half way between your knee and crotch. Then I bring the right hand over to the left leg and continue up the thigh with a hand on either side. As I am massaging at the very top of your leg the back of my right hand can't help but come into contact with your private area. After doing the left leg, I pick up where I left off on the right leg (with a hand on either side of the thigh).

You are feeling good and relaxed. You are heating up and I can really smell your perfume. I ask if I can massage your hands, and you say yes.

You roll over on your back, and I start to massage your hands. We are really looking at each other (which I think we do in real life). We are also talking to each other but I can't remember a thing we say. I take my time and do each finger individually. I use my thumb to massage your palm from the base of your fingers to your wrist. When I am finished with one hand, I do the other.

I ask if I can massage your neck and shoulders and you say yes. You roll back over onto your stomach. I am on my knees straddling your back. I start at your neck where your hairline is. I apply gentle pressure in the middle and each side of your neck. I work my way down either side to your shoulders. I use gentle pressure on the top of your shoulders, but as I come to the back of your shoulders I use the heal of my hand and increase the pressure. I ask if it I can do your back and you say O.K. I place the tips of my fingers on either side of your spine. I do very small circular motions on either side of your spine. As I am making the circles, I am moving lower and lower down your back. I massage from the very top of your spine down to the very bottom.

When I get to the bottom of your back, I place my hands underneath your shirt. I start to rub your sides immediately above your hips (one hand on each side). I continue to come up your sides until I get to the bottom of your breasts. You lift youself ever so slighty so I can come to the front of your chest. I push up the cups of your bra so I can massage your bare breasts. I gently squeeze your nipples between my fingers. I bend down so that my mouth is right next to your ear, and I ask if I can massage your front. In an almost inaudible voice you say yes.

This is where some dream magic happens. Now you are laying on your back. Instead of having all of your clothes on, you are only wearing your panties. They are French bikini style.

I am on my knees straddling you. I am very gently rubbing your forehead. I slide my hands over to your temples and gently rub them. I bring my hands down further and very gently rub your checks. I continue to bring my hands down to the front of your shoulders. As I finish there, I bring my left hand over to your right arm. I gently massage the entire arm with both hands, from the shoulder down to the wrist. When I have completed, I do the same to your left arm.

I now position myself so that I am laying beside you. You are still laying on your back, but I am now laying on my side. I use my left hand to very gently rub underneath your chin and the front of your neck. I lean in and kiss your check and neck. I lean over further and start to kiss your breast. I kiss it two or three times and then suck your nipple into my mouth. I can feel with my tongue that your nipple is stiff. I apply strong suction, but not so much that it hurts. I pull my head away until your nipple slides out of my puckered lips. I gently blow on your nipple and it becomes totally erect.

As I am kissing and sucking your breast, my left hand is gently rubbing your side.

I kiss the middle of your chest, and then start to kiss and suck your left breast. As I am doing this, I slide my left hand inside your panties. I start to rub your clitoris and I can feel your heat and your wetness.

After I finish with your left breast I kiss the middle of your chest, and start to kiss and lick downward. When I get to your belly button I am in an awkward uncomfortable position. I reposition myself so that I am between your legs. I grab either side of your panties and start pulling them downard. You raise your hips up off the bed so they slide down to your thighs. You bring your knees up to your chest and I slip the panties over your feet, and you are completely naked.

I bend down and start kissing you between your legs. I take my hand and part your lips to expose your clitoris. I start to softly lick and suck you. I take the middle and index finger of my other hand and gently slide them inside you. I bend the fingers ever so slightly upward so that I can feel the slight roughness of your G-spot. I start sliding my fingers up and down inside of you, while I continue to lick and suck. I can feel your body start to tremble and tense up until you finally explode in an intense orgasm.

Due to dream magic I am now also naked.

You are still laying on your back. I am laying half on top of you and half beside you. I am gently running my hands over you body, and softly kissing different parts of your face and neck. We lay like this for a few minutes until you are able to compose yourself both physically and emotionally.

You gently push me completely off of you, and I am now laying on my back. You raise up and straddle me. You reach down between my legs and take me in your hand. You position me so that I slide inside of you. We are looking deeply in each others eyes. You start moving your hips up and down. I reach down with my right hand and start to rub your clitoris with the same rhythm you are moving your hips. I once again start to feel your body tense up, I can also feel my own excitement building. We only do this for a short time before you orgasm again. As you start to cum, I simutaneously explode inside of you.

At this instant in time I wake up in my own bed. I am in the middle of an intense orgasm. After it is over, I very gently and quietly go to the bathroom to clean myself up. Depending on the time and other things I may or may not be able to get back to sleep.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Let's see

them... u there?
me ... I am now
:
They call on phone
:
me ... I can hear the tiredness in your voice
them... I need some rest I know
them... Ya i am tired
them... THANK you
me ... for what ??
them... For all the things you did for me today
me ... I know I can't do this for real, so I will just do this
me ... HUG